Dear Journal,
Prom is coming up. I'm very nervous. I don't want to see all the people I thought I would never see again when I left high school. I don't think anyone will care but it will still be odd. I am also excited to see people that I haven't really talked to that I am looking foward to catching up. Plus it will be fun to dress up to look pretty again. I'm also glad I get to do it again and go with a date that I'm looking foward to go with. Also last year we tried to do two proms in one night. We went to Bays prom and Rocky Rivers after prom. Since Rocky Rivers prom and after prom were earlier we had to leave Bays prom early and plan that all out which wasn't as fun. But thats over and now I get to do it all over again. Which not many people get to do again (of course my sister did).
Anyway I'm going to work soon. I don't know if I will be able to write very much after this. I will probably try. I hope Chris takes me out on his jet skis a lot because I love the lake. I'm very upset since I won't be able to go to my cottage in Vermillion much because my mom is sick. But hopefully Chris's jet skis will make up for it.
Next issue is my friends. Why are friends so mean some times. I love my friends. But lately they have been making me feel bad about myself. They never invite me to do anything. They went to hunington beach right by my home. They even drove by my house and said hi in the car. But I don't understand why they don't even call me and invite me. It's like they don't want to hang out with me anymore. Then I confront them and they tell me I'm wrong. But wish that they woudln't lie if it is true. I don't understand though if I'm wrong then why do they still not include me. It makes me feel bad. Then I said a few things that was mean. I'm not going to lie it was mean. Then they made me feel even worse about that. They made it seem like it was all my fault and I was all to blame. They acted like they did nothing wrong and I did everything wrong. That made me feel even worse. They make me feel bad everyday I'm around them. They have made me so mad that I am almost trying to avoid them. I used to talk to my best friend almost everyday. I havent talked to her on the phone or in person for almost three weeks. I got a message on my phone and talked to her a little bit on aim. That is it. But I guess I have to get used to this. I have other friends that are probable better then them. Plus I have my boyfriend who is listening to me repeat my friend problems over and over.
Anyway this birthday was the worst birthday ever. The only good thing was I got to go shopping with my boyfriend. My parents were at a soccer tournament with my brother. They are obsessed with him and his soccer. Sorry mom and dad that I'm not as obsessed and as good as a sport then him. Nobody really remembered it was my birthday. I nobody was really around. I felt alone. But I'm used to a birthday at school and this year I didn't have that. My best friend again didn't do anything. She left a long message that is it. I thought she was going to call back like she said on my message but she never did. But I need to get over that next year will be better. Well I'm done for now. Bye
Gabrielle
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